I have been so frustrated with myself over recent months, even years, that I don't make time to read. I love to read. But I have been so out of the habit. It's one of the things I so want to change. I started reading this book last end of summer, and little by little I am almost finished with it. I have mentioned it here before, but wanted to mention it again as now that I am almost finished I can SO recommend this book. It has amazed me time and again. Though what amazes me more, with a sense of wonder/awe, is how God has blessed me with this book, spoken directly to me through it. I will share something that is a little hard for me to share, but I think and hope, as women you will understand. We deal with so many things, being a wife, a mother, trying to be a good and attentive friend which I fail at so often, and wearing so many other hats, juggling it all while sometimes battling hormones through it all. It might be no secret that I feel like a fish out of water where I live, still after over 20 years feel rather anonymous and out of place. We live smack dab in the middle of where Jack has lived his whole life, so he and I, while sweethearts, sometimes, well, usually, cannot relate to each other. It makes me less than desirable at times, and hormonally I struggle a lot. To get to the point, we were sitting on the couch the other night, he was watching something sporty and I was reading this book. I had just told him that one of the reasons I loved the book, Lessons I Learned in the Dark, was because every time I would read it, I would read something that said something profound to me that I was experiencing then, not recently, that very day or days. Every single time! Well, before the little conversation had finished, I had brought up some things, some little irritants that I wished were different, etc. etc. etc. We both sighed as it was not anything overly different than any other time or anything we really intended to finish talking about at that time. He headed up to bed, I planned to follow minutes later, and I read this:
"Rest where you are — Paul's example of how to chart a course through thorns suggests that we rest in our weakness. Until we settle into the position where we've been placed by His grace, we'll never see His strength made perfect there. And we'll never experience the journey as we follow Him. Yet instead of resting where God has placed us, lots of us resist. We do this by heaping guilt on others who don't seem to have it as bad, or perhaps by subjecting others to a litany of complaints. Such behavior is a red flag signaling that we're resisting."Well, needless to say, I went up and read it to him. And we smiled. So, again, I heartily recommend this book. She is a wonderful author.